The Elephant in the Room5:19 PM
Sometimes I forget that this blog isn't just for scrapbooking. I still get a lot of questions about my health, and I wanted to talk about it today. I've debated whether or not to write this post for some time, because it's something that is difficult for me to discuss. But if what I'm going through can help at least one person, then it's worth writing about.
Why did I gain so much weight? Apparently my body is now extremely sensitive to sugar. Giving it up for so long, combined with my body's craziness, makes it react strongly. Another answer is sleep deprivation. Splitting up my sleep like that did me no favors.
But, I AM NOT A FAILURE. This journey has taught Michael and I so much about our health. It's not fun to struggle with this, but it is turning me into a stronger person. It's helped me understand that other people value me for so much more than my looks. It has reminded me what a gift it is to be created in God's image, and to know how truly beautiful that is. I am so much more than a number on the scale. I've made huge strides in my health, even if I have had setbacks. Heck, it takes serious time and dedication to cook all the healthy meals that I do, and on a budget to boot! I am proud of the person I am on the inside AND the outside. I am Allie, I am beautiful, and I will keep fighting every single day until I am as healthy as I can be.
|This is a picture of me taken yesterday. I'm five pounds below my heaviest weight ever (in 2011), but damn it, I'm still beautiful.|